My Thoughts Were Completely Different from God’s Thoughts

 

My Thoughts Were Completely Different from God’s Thoughts

A single issue of Good News magazine that I encountered in prison changed my entire life.
I once believed that a sinner like me could never stand before God — that I was destined only to sin and go to hell.
But my thoughts were completely different from God’s thoughts.
All my sins were washed away through the precious blood that Jesus shed on the cross, and God declared me righteous.
Now, instead of relying on my own thoughts, I look at the world through God’s heart.

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There were many people around me who went to church, so from a young age, I often went to church on Christmas and during special events.
When I was in high school, a close friend asked me, “Do you want to go to church with me?”
That was how I started attending church.

I didn’t really understand the Word of God, nor did I know why Jesus had to be crucified. All I knew was, “If you believe in Jesus, you’ll go to heaven.” That was the extent of my faith. In my senior year of high school, I was baptized. But later, due to various problems, I began to drift away from church.

At the Full Gospel church I used to attend, the pastor, elders, and members regularly confessed their sins every week. They would pray, “We sinners have gathered here. Please forgive the sins we’ve committed this past week and wash them clean with the blood of Jesus.”

They taught that to be saved, one must repent daily, live a good and kind life, and only after being sanctified could one enter heaven. I also believed that only by living that way could I go to heaven.

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Alcohol That Controlled My Life

When I entered university, I began drinking with friends.
For some reason, I felt alcohol could mask my timid personality, and smoking made it seem easier to bond with friends.
Gradually, I drowned in a world of alcohol and cigarettes.

The more I drank, the more distant I became from the church. Before long, alcohol had complete control over me. During my military service, I worked for two years and four months as a public service worker, which only worsened my drinking.

Eventually, I began blacking out whenever I drank. I woke up each morning with severe headaches caused by alcohol. My skin became rough, and my personality more violent. At night, I often woke up without remembering how I got home or how I parted ways with the people I drank with — it terrified me. To escape the guilt, I drank even more.

Some people tried to talk me out of drinking, but I didn’t want to listen. I said, “If I don’t want to drink, I can quit anytime. What are you worried about?”
But alcohol that ruled over me did not let me go.

I thought, “By next year, after I graduate, I’ll live a normal working life.” But the reality was completely different. Because of my drinking, I couldn’t adapt to society and caused my parents endless worry.

I felt I couldn’t live like that anymore. At my parents’ urging, I went to alcohol addiction treatment hospitals several times. To avoid drinking, I tried picking up hobbies, focusing on study and exercise, and sometimes traveling alone. I managed to stay sober for about a year or two.

I thought, “Great, I can handle this now. I can control how much I drink.” So I started drinking again. But nothing had changed. For two weeks, I stayed in my room doing nothing but drink. I drank when I woke up, drank when I couldn’t sleep, but the alcohol that was supposed to help me sleep only made insomnia worse.

Whenever I closed my eyes, terrifying figures like ghosts appeared, and I couldn’t sleep at all. I thought it would be better to die than live like that every day.

Though I repented daily, my guilt toward my family and friends only grew. I lived like a walking corpse. Though I didn’t want to, my body was controlled by something I couldn’t explain. My thoughts were all negative, my speech grew rough, my behavior violent. No one could help me.

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Desperately Wanting to Come Before the Word of God

Four years ago, after drinking for several days, I committed a crime while intoxicated and was sent to prison. No matter how much I repented, I couldn’t turn back time.

My parents tried everything to keep me from serving time, but no agreement was reached with the victim. I was sentenced to four years in prison. I even thought about ending my life.

I found out there were religious services in prison, and I wanted to attend, but due to COVID-19, all gatherings were suspended. I stayed in Gwangju Detention Center for 1 year and 2 months before being transferred to Jinju Prison.

By then, religious gatherings had resumed. But I felt too ashamed to attend. “How can I face God after committing such a sin?” I thought. It felt like God was saying, “You ignored Me all this time, and now you come to Me only in trouble?”

Three years passed, and I desperately wanted to come before the Word of God.

However, when I finally could have attended, gatherings were suspended again due to COVID-19. And when they resumed, I was always assigned to “record-keeping” work during those times, so I couldn’t participate.

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God Declared Me Righteous!

Because I longed for God’s Word, I asked a fellow inmate who attended the gatherings to bring me any religious books available. He gladly brought me many books.

After work, I spent my free time reading the Bible and faith-related books. On weekends, I devoted entire days to reading the Bible in my cell.

In May 2023, that same inmate brought me the May issue of Good News magazine.
In it, Pastor Ock Soo Park clearly explained the forgiveness of sins.

Romans 3:23–24 says:

“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”

This verse is God’s verdict concerning our sins.

In the Old Testament, people offered sacrifices so that a lamb would die in their place and cleanse their sins. In the New Testament, Jesus came to earth, shed His blood, died, and resurrected to forgive all our sins once and for all. God remembers them no more and has declared us righteous.

When I read this, I believed it. It was an astonishing discovery — a miracle!

“I am not a sinner! God has declared me righteous! I am righteous. Why did I not know this and live in despair, drowning in alcohol?”

Good News magazine contained sermons, testimonies, stories of missionaries spreading the gospel around the world, Pastor Park’s missionary journeys, and testimonies of people who found salvation in prison after reading the magazine.

I felt proud to see how Korea, once a nation that received help, now powerfully spreads the true gospel worldwide through Good News Mission.

Because I wanted to learn more about this precious gospel, I wrote to the magazine office asking them to send me more issues. They not only sent me Good News magazines but also weekly sermon booklets containing Pastor Park’s Sunday messages.

After work, when I returned to my cell, receiving those magazines and booklets became my joy and hope.

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Meditating on Pastor Ock Soo Park’s Sunday Sermons

I once thought prison life had no meaning, but little by little, I began to change. I encouraged other inmates to read Good News magazines and weeklies too.

I no longer sat idly after work but meditated on the Sunday messages of Pastor Park.

“Even Pastor Park had very difficult times. But through those hardships, he met God. I used to despair, blaming my circumstances...”

In John 11, when Lazarus was sick, Jesus said, “This sickness will not end in death. It is for the glory of God.”

Joseph was sold into slavery and imprisoned, but eventually became prime minister of Egypt and saved his people.

I realized that just as with Joseph, the hardships and pain of my past were God’s work to fulfill His will in me. A hope I’d never felt before began to grow in my heart.

I read the magazines and booklets more and more. Though I rarely reread books, I could read these over and over without boredom.

“If I go to Good News Mission Church and truly understand this gospel, my drinking problem will be solved!”

Even though I still had a long sentence, I decided I would go to Good News Jinju Church after my release. I also dreamed of studying at the Good News Online Theology School.

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“A Brother’s Life Is More Precious than the Whole World”

As my release day approached, it still felt unreal. I wrote another letter, asking to continue receiving the magazines and booklets at my home address after release.

On February 3rd, my long-awaited release day arrived. My house was near Good News Jinju Church. But I felt too nervous to go alone to a church full of strangers.

“If I tell them I was released from prison, how will they look at me?”

So I told myself I’d go “next time.”

Shortly after, I began receiving Good News magazines and weeklies at home. One day, a package arrived from Jinju Church with a note attached — it had the pastor’s phone number and a message saying, “Please call me.”

I called the pastor and confessed, “I’m worried about how people will see me, so I hesitate to come.”

The pastor gently replied, “We don’t see you that way at all. Your life is more precious than the whole world.”

Later, Deacon Choi Soo-chang and his wife visited my home. I was deeply grateful. They took me to church, where I met the pastor face to face.

He shared the gospel again and said, “If you hadn’t gone to prison, how could you have heard this precious gospel?”

“Yes, that’s true,” I replied. “Though prison was painful, it was God’s plan to lead me to the gospel.”

After the conversation, I enjoyed warm fellowship with the deacon, and my heart was filled with peace and joy.

He invited me to a Bible seminar happening that week. While in prison, I had longed to hear the gospel in person, and now the moment had come. My heart overflowed with joy.

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When God Says “Righteous,” It Means Righteous

It was my first Bible seminar. Pastor Oh Sung-gyun from Good News Gangnam Church preached the Word. His message about “what is truly right” made a deep impression on me.

He shared how, believing he was right, he was whipped 50 times by his superior in the military, and yet convinced himself he had “won.” Looking back, it was meaningless.

I was the same. I never backed down when I thought I was right, even if it hurt my family. I only cared about my own perspective, not God’s.

In John 8, when people wanted to stone the adulterous woman, Jesus said, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Everyone left. Then Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you. Go now and leave your life of sin.”

I realized I needed to look at myself and the world not through my own thoughts but through the eyes of Jesus.

The story of Lee Min-seop, a boy diagnosed with autism, also stayed with me. Though the world saw him as disabled, Pastor Park saw him through God’s eyes. Today, Min-seop is a gifted speaker and teacher.

If God says someone is righteous, then that person is not a sinner, but righteous.

The next day, I spoke with Pastor Oh after the sermon. His clear explanation of the gospel deeply moved me.

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Knowing the Gospel Is the Happiest Thing in My Life

On that Sunday evening, Pastor Kim Ki-sung from Good News Busan Daeyeon Church came to preach. I had seen his story in the weekly magazine — he had spent 16 years in prison, received salvation, and became a pastor.

He shared, “We must not follow our hearts or be dragged by our thoughts. True happiness depends on our hearts.”

Attending that Bible seminar was an immense grace.

“Jesus was crucified and died for my sins. All my sins were forgiven once and for all. God remembers them no more.”

Knowing the gospel has become the happiest thing in my life.

The church gifted me Pastor Kim’s book The Man Who Became Great. Reading it, I realized there are people who have endured far worse situations than mine and are now preaching the gospel around the world.

I sincerely hope Good News Mission can bring mind education and the gospel to prisons across Korea so more inmates can receive salvation through this message.

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Human Thoughts and God’s Thoughts Are Completely Different

These days, I love listening to sermons daily, reading the magazine, and studying Pastor Park’s books like Freed from Sin, The New Covenant of God, and Who Is Leading Me?

I dream of becoming a servant of God like Pastor Kim Ki-sung, preaching this precious gospel.

Until now, I thought I could change myself with my own willpower. But trusting in myself only led to being enslaved by alcohol.

My thoughts were completely different from God’s. I thought I was a sinner who must repent every day to be forgiven. But God has already washed away all my sins and freely made me righteous.

Believing this fact is believing in God. Now, I pray to look at everything not with my thoughts but with God’s heart.

I once thought I was destined only to sin and go to hell. But after believing that all my sins were forgiven, I no longer fear death — nor am I bound by the fear of drinking again.

I now pray for the salvation of my unsaved family members — my parents, sister’s family, brother, and friends. Just as I received peace through the gospel, I long for them to find the same peace in Christ.

I also pray that this testimony may lead many who read it to receive the same salvation. I give thanks and glory to God for the grace to testify of His work in my life.

 

我的想法和神的想法完全不同

 

在监狱里遇见的一本《好消息》月刊改变了我的人生。我认为像我这样的罪人无法走到神面前，我是只能犯罪下地狱的人。但我的想法和神的想法完全不同。我所有的罪藉着耶稣在十字架上流淌的宝血都被洗净了，所以我是义人了。如今，我不再依靠我的想法，而是带着神的心看这个世界。

 

我身边有很多人去教会，所以我从小就经常在圣诞节等活动日去教会。上高中的时候，一位好朋友对我说：“你要不要去教会看看？”从此我开始去教会。我对圣经话语不太了解，也不明白耶稣为什么钉在十字架上，只知道“信耶稣就会去天国”。就这样，我一直去教会。高三的时候，我受了洗。后来，因为各种各样的问题，我开始远离教会。

在当时我所去的纯福音教会里，牧师、长老以及所有信徒经常去教会认罪，将自己一周内所犯的罪一一悔改。到了第二周，他们又祷告说：“我们这些罪人聚在一起，悔改一周以内我们所犯的罪，请用耶稣的宝血彻底洗净我们吧！”他们说，我们要想得救，就得每天悔改认罪，要良善地生活、行善，还说只有圣化了，才有可能去天国。我也曾认为只有这样做才能去天国。

 

曾经支配我的酒不会放过我

自从上了大学，我就开始和朋友们一起喝酒。不知为何，我觉得酒似乎可以成为遮盖我胆小性格的遮羞布，而且在闲暇时间抽根烟，感觉能催化我与朋友们之间的友情似的。就这样，我沉浸在烟酒的世界里。

酒一发不可收拾地侵蚀掉了我的一切，这与远离教会的速度成正比。没过多久，酒便完全支配了我。服兵役期间，我从事了2年零4个月的公益勤务要员的工作，这也成了我越来越酗酒的主要原因。从某一天开始，我一喝酒就容易断片。每天早上起床后，我都要与酒精导致的头痛作斗争，我的皮肤也越发变得粗糙，性格也变得愈加粗暴。晚上从睡梦中醒来，我也不知道自己是怎么回家的，也不知道是怎么和一起喝酒的人分开的，为此我感到很害怕。由于负罪感，我需要更多的酒来忘记它。

有些人出于担心会劝说我，我却非常不愿意听。我反驳道：“如果我不想喝酒，就能马上戒酒，你有什么好担心的？”但是与我的意愿相反，支配我的酒并没有放过我。“明年这个时候大学毕业，我应该会过平凡的职场生活吧？”虽然我带着这样的想法，但第二年过着完全不同的生活。因为喝酒，我无法适应社会，令父母操碎了心。

我觉得不能再这样生活下去了。在父母的劝说下，我多次去过酒精中毒治疗专科医院。为了不喝酒，我尝试培养一些兴趣爱好，也会专注于学习和运动，有时还一个人旅行，付出了很多努力。就这样，我差不多有一两年时间没有沾酒。我想：“太好了，我可以的，我现在应该也可以控制自己喝适量的酒了！”于是，我再次喝起了酒。然而，这次和以前的我没什么两样。就这样，我在屋里一动不动地喝了半个月。酒醒后又喝；睡醒后又喝。因为睡不着才喝的酒，现在反而让我睡不着了。我在睡觉时总做噩梦，一闭上眼睛，鬼一样的东西总是出现在眼前，以致于眼睛都无法闭上。

我觉得每天这样活着倒不如死了。虽然每天都在悔改，但是对家人和周围朋友的负罪感只增不减，行尸走肉般的生活从未间断。虽然我的内心并非如此，但身体总是被莫名的某种存在操纵着。我满脑子都是消极的想法，说话也变得粗鲁起来，行为也变得粗暴起来。没有一个人能帮助我。

 

迫切地想要走到神的话语面前

那是4年前的某一天。我喝了几天的酒，在神志不清的情况下犯了罪，进了监狱。即使我不断悔改、反省，时光也无法倒流。父母为了不让我服刑而费尽心思，但最终没能与受害者达成协议，我被判处有期徒刑4年。当时，我想死的心都有。

我发现监狱里也有宗教聚会。虽然我很想去参加，但那时新冠疫情刚刚爆发，所以没有进行聚会。我在光州以未决犯身份待了1年零2个月后被移送至晋州。那时，宗教聚会开始了。想到“我犯了这样的罪，怎么有脸见神呢”，我没有勇气参加宗教聚会。神似乎对我说：“平时你根本不记念我，只有在困难的时候才找我吗？” 来到监狱已经3年了，我非常迫切地想要走到神的话语面前。

然而，当我可以参加宗教聚会时，因为新冠疫情而不能参加。待宗教聚会重新开始后，又因为我每次都担任“记录”的职责，要确认每次出工后接受各种教育的人数，因此没能参加宗教聚会。

 

神称我为义了！

因为对神的话语特别渴慕，我拜托参加宗教聚会的同改，聚会场所若备置了宗教书籍，请他拿一些给我。同改欣然送来了许多书籍。收工后剩下的时间，我阅读了《圣经》和信仰书籍。而到了周六和周日，只能在监室里活动的时候，我一整天都会读圣经。

到了2023年5月，参加宗教聚会的同改带来了一本《好消息》5月的月刊。在那本书中，朴玉洙牧师非常准确地讲了罪得赦免的内容。《罗马书》3章23~24节中说：“因为世人都犯了罪，亏缺了神的荣耀；如今却蒙神的恩典，因基督耶稣的救赎，就白白地称义。”这话语是神向着我们罪的判决书。圣经《利未记》中记载说，在旧约时代，人们为了赎罪而献的祭祀中，羊代替人们死亡，以此洗净了罪；而在新约时代，耶稣来到这地上，为了我们的罪流血而死并复活，使我们所有的罪都被赦免，从此不再记念我们的罪，称我们为义了。读完这话语之后，我相信了这个事实。这是一个惊人的发现！奇迹发生了！“我不是罪人！神已经称我为义了！我是义人了。为什么我连这个都不知道，每天都喝酒呢？”

《好消息》月刊中有讲道、圣徒见证、在全世界范围内传福音的宣教士们的故事、朴玉洙牧师在世界各国传福音的故事，还有在监狱里读完《好消息》月刊后得救的见证等非常蒙恩典的内容。如果说以前韩国是必须接受其他国家援助的国家，那么现在成为了堂堂正正地向世界传递真理福音的国家，这让我感到很骄傲和高兴。而且在此过程中，好消息宣教会起到了主要作用，我感到非常自豪和惊讶。看到朴玉洙牧师所到之处都传福音，人们得救后喜乐不已，我也很高兴成为了他们中的一员，并为此感到幸福。因为很想进一步了解这珍贵的福音话语，所以我给月刊编辑部写了信，拜托他们寄来月刊。他们给我寄来《好消息》月刊的同时，也寄来了刊登朴玉洙牧师主日讲道的《好消息》周刊。收工后回到监室里，看到寄到监室里的周刊和月刊是我的希望和快乐。

 

一直默想朴玉洙牧师的主日讲道

我一直认为监狱的生活没有任何意义，消极的我却逐渐发生了变化。我也劝同改们读一下《好消息》月刊和周刊，也不像以前那样出工后呆呆地坐着，而是一直默想脑海里浮现的《好消息》周刊中朴玉洙牧师的主日讲道内容。

“原来朴牧师也有过非常艰难的时期。因为有那样的困难时期，他才能遇见神。之前我看着自己的困难感到绝望，埋怨周围的一切……”

在《约翰福音》11章中，耶稣看到因病将死的拿撒路，说：“这病不至于死，乃是为神的荣耀。”约瑟因为讲述了自己的梦，遭到了哥哥们的嫉妒，被卖到了埃及，甚至被关进了监狱。但最终约瑟成为了埃及的宰相，拯救了以色列百姓。我默想着这些话语，心想就像约瑟一样，以前的困难和痛苦是神为了在我里面成就神的旨意而做的工。我心里开始产生了从未有过的盼望。

因此，我更加认真地读起了月刊和周刊。我一般不会重读一遍书，却可以一遍又一遍地读月刊和周刊，根本不觉得厌倦，对我来说这是恩典。“啊！如果去好消息宣教会，明白了这福音，酒的问题就能得到解决了！”我心里产生了确信。

虽然刑期还剩很长一段时间，但我想在出狱后一定要去好消息晋州教会。我也想读一读朴玉洙牧师写的很多书，看着好消息网络神学院的广告，甚至产生了想学习神学的想法。

 

“弟兄是比天下还宝贵的生命。”

随着时间的推移，出狱的日子越来越近了。离出狱还有两个月，甚至一个月的时候，我还是觉得有很长时间，感觉不太真实。我心想，要是出狱后回到家里，也能收到月刊和周刊就好了。所以，我厚着脸皮又写了信，说希望出狱后也想在家收到月刊等书籍，并写上了家庭住址。

2月3日，盼望已久的出狱之日终于到来。我家附近就是好消息晋州教会。虽然真的到了那一天，但是我一个人去一家无人认识的陌生教会，实在是太迷茫了。“如果我说我从监狱出狱的话，人们会用怎样的眼光看我呢？”为此，我心里很怯懦，默默地决定还是下次再去。

不久后，非常感谢的是，每周、每月的《好消息》月刊和周刊都寄到了家里。我一口气就读完了。现在和在监狱里读书时相比，又充满了其他的恩典。有一天，从好消息晋州教会寄来了一个包裹，里面有一本月刊，上面还贴着一张便签，上面写着好消息晋州教会牧师的电话号码，以及“一定要给我打电话”的留言。

于是，我给牧师打了电话。我坦白地对牧师说：“我很担心人们会怎么看我，所以很犹豫要不要去教会。”牧师回答说：“我们完全不那样看，弟兄是比天下还宝贵的生命。”尽管如此，我还是犹豫不决。

一天晚上，好消息晋州教会崔秀昌执事和金秀晶执事夫妻来到了我家里。我特别高兴。在两位的引导下，我先去教会和牧师见了面，进行了交流。牧师再次给我传了福音，并说：“如果不是进监狱，你怎么能听到这么珍贵的福音呢？”“是的，没错。虽然在监狱里很累很痛苦，但这是神为了引导我来到福音面前而制定的计划！”瞬间，我感觉此前发生的事情反而让我感谢不已。交流结束后，我和崔秀昌执事一起喝咖啡聊天，心里非常平安和幸福。

崔执事说那周正好有圣经布道会，邀请我一起去。在监狱的时候，我就想出狱后亲自听一听讲道。没想到盼望已久的时刻就要到来了，我心里非常高兴。

 

神说义人就是义人

这是我第一次参加圣经布道会。来自好消息江南教会的吴圣均牧师传讲了话语。吴牧师传讲了很多令人蒙恩典的话语，其中关于“正确”的话语在我心里留下了很深的印象。牧师说，他因为相信自己的想法是正确的，所以在军队里被长官挨了50鞭子。他自己却强忍了下来，甚至对自己说“我赢了”，但现在回想起来，那是毫无意义的想法。我也是一样。只要是我认为正确的事情，就绝不会让步。即便争吵，也要为了小小的自尊心，经常把事情搞砸。最重要的是对我的家人也造成了很大的伤害。我的想法和神的想法不同，但我只在乎自己的想法，不能用耶稣的眼睛看世界。

 

在《约翰福音》8章中，耶稣对那些想用石头打死行淫中被拿之妇人的人们说：“你们中间谁是没有罪的，谁就可以先拿石头打她。”周围的所有人都离开了。耶稣对她说：“我也不定你的罪。去吧，从此不要再犯罪了。”

听了话语，我产生了“比起我的想法，我更应该用耶稣的眼睛看我，看世界”的想法。

李民燮学生的故事也让人记忆犹新。世人眼中的民燮明明是自闭症儿童，但朴玉洙牧师用神的眼睛看到的民燮却很正常。在世上被诊断为自闭症的民燮，如今成长为比正常人更优秀的人，成为了心灵讲师。

这让我联想到了“如果神说是义人，那就不是罪人，而是义人”的话语。第二天讲道结束后，我与吴牧师进行了交流。牧师把福音讲得特别透彻。我真的非常感谢。

 

认识福音是我人生中最幸福的事

那周的主日晚上礼拜时，我听说好消息釜山大渊教会的金基成牧师要来传话语。我突然觉得好像在周刊上读过他的故事，但又不太了解。晋州教会牧师做了大概介绍。据说，他在监狱服刑了16年，期间得救，现在成为了一名牧师。崔秀昌执事播放了网上的相关视频，说他是《成大器者》书籍的作者，也是同名电影的真实主人公。

我也参加了主日晚上的礼拜。晋州教会牧师还让我向金基成牧师问好。金牧师讲述了真理之言，说：“不能跟随我们自己的心走，不能被自己的想法牵引，要跟随引导者。人生的幸福与不幸取决于我们的心。”

出狱后参加的圣经布道会，对我来说是非常蒙恩典的时间。“耶稣因为我的罪被钉十字架而死，永远地赦免了我所有的罪，永远不记念我的罪了。”感谢神的话语。认识福音是我人生中最幸福的事情。

教会送给了我金基成牧师写的《成大器者》。读着书，我才明白还有比我在更辛苦、更困难的环境中生活的人。金基成牧师现在走遍世界各地，给囚犯们进行心灵教育，并传福音。真心希望好消息宣教会能去韩国监狱进行心灵教育，给他们传话语。如果韩国的囚犯们也能读到《成大器者》就好了。虽然在主日晚上和金牧师握手见了面，但是很想以后见面，再好好聊一聊。

 

人的想法和神的想法截然不同

最近，我喜欢每天听牧师的讲道，读月刊，读朴玉洙牧师的《脱离罪恶》、《神的新约》、《牵着我的你是谁》等书籍。以后，我想读更多的书，更进一步了解福音。因此，我梦想着成为像金基成牧师一样传讲宝贵福音的神的仆人。

到目前为止，我认为我可以改变我的心，我认为只要我下定决心，就可以做任何事。然而，我因为相信自己，认为我能控制酒，最终只能沉迷于酒。人的想法和神的想法截然不同。我以为我犯了罪，所以是罪人，只有悔改认罪才能洗罪；我认为我犯的罪很多，所以不能站在神面前。但是神已经洗净了我一切的罪，白白地施给我恩典，叫我成义、圣洁。相信这一事实，就是相信神。现在，我向神祷告，希望不是用我的意志和想法，而是用神的心思意念来看待一切。

我以为我只能犯罪，下地狱，但自从我相信我的罪都被洗净，并成义之后，我就不再害怕死亡，也从害怕再次喝酒的恐惧中解放出来了。

为了向还没有得救的家人，特别是父母、姐姐一家、哥哥以及朋友传福音，我正在祷告。就像我听福音后得到平安一样，希望我的家人也能进入福音的话语中，得到平安。

此外，我祷告我所得到的救恩也能传给读到这个见证的人身上，拯救许多人。感谢神赐予我能够见证的恩典，献上感谢和荣耀。